Today I had an experience I'd like to share with everyone. During the last days I began to feel unprepared for many things that came to me, plus I was frustrated, I started to lose faith that the things could be better. I had immersed in a depression and a feeling of defeat that was ruining me. The loss of faith in God was making me a different person. I know that for most people that know me I'm not a devoted to a church or a Bible reader, but sometimes we just need to believe in something!
This morning I prepared to take some papers to the University, and as my son had no class I decided to take him with me. After I left the papers, he began to tell one of his crazy ideas when suddenly he asked me, "Mommy, what is courage?". I had to think of a good and simple answer for him to understand, so I said, "My love, courage is the strength you have to do something." To which he replied: "Then I have a lot of courage" and showed me his little arms pointing to the muscle he had. I said, "No honey, not that kind of strength, but the strength of heart, to deal with problems or difficult situations." Then he replied, "So, that’s the sound of my heart goin tum-tum" and put his hands on his chest. Then I said: "Something like that, but it is more like the strength that allows it to sound that way every day". So he stopped to think a little while and he said: "So it's Him" pointing to the sky. Then he said: “God is the courage with that I'm brave”. With these words I realized that I couldn't have given a better conclusion, and he's just a little boy.That night I met some friends and my mentor from the University to read something and to do some reflecting. So when the mentor was prepared to read the chosen text, he read:
"6. Be strong and courageous...7. Be strong and very courageous... that you may be successful wherever you go. 9. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” (fragment from The Bible, Joshua : 6-9)When I heard that, I inmediatly thought in what my son had said this morning.
I guess that God thinks in everything when He wants to tell us something, even through the Bible or a child. Now I know that He is walking next to me and He knows how I feel and what I need. I think this experience returned some of the faith that I'd lost.
